"All in God's timing."
Every year I have been in college I have had a bi-annual conversation with myself. I give a peek into what I am thinking if someone asks and honestly I appreciate when someone shows interest to give their take on the situation. But what is that situation you ask? Note: I have always struggled to justify debt. I am not a big money fan in general. So this inner monologue that I speak of, this pondering and wrestling I confront?
I am Lord willing going to graduate in 1.5 semesters with a degree in Theology(youth ministry). When I switched my major beginning of 2nd year I was excited about youth ministry, I content with my direction. But for all the worth of being in college and with the hopes of a degree I am still frustrated with the cost. But this is what makes this next bit so puzzling...
Should I change my major? Almost laughable at this point I know. I was bouncing some ideas off of a friend earlier tonight and suggested that maybe I am just not content with what I have chosen. What if I stuck with music, would I now be considering changing to theology because I was no longer drawn to music? Is it an issue of contentment or maybe it is a subconscious way of thinking that I don't really want to look for a job and be completely independent within a year. I do really like the in between stage I have been in for 3 almost 4 years.
The question is this...do I wrap up my work as a theology major and graduate and then on to who knows what in "reality"? Or do I double dip by working and studying full time? Or do I dare stick around and pursue a second degree?
If cost were not an issue, I would stay right here and learn choral music education here at Dordt. Why? I have complained of Iowa for all these years and I miss home. Why not just study choral music education back in the Seattle area? Maybe I really do love the music department here THAT much. Whoa! But of course cost is an issue. In some ways I have missed my chance.
The person I mentioned earlier had some profound nuggets...
1. pray about it, what does God have to say about this? (what a crazy idea)
2. is it worth being happy with your career once you are finished? (hmmm--> this is where that idea of contentment came into play)
3. what else factors in besides finances? would it be a waste of time?
It is almost as if I have gone through college once...I now know how it's done and maybe the second time around I will get it right.
Please pray for me, I need some divine wisdom here people.
"All in God's timing"
1 comment:
Joel,
I teach at a university in Alabama and have some thoughts/advice for you:
1. It's certainly not too late. You are still in college and therefore have the best access NOW to the degrees that will help you succeed in life. Although you may feel "old" you aren't . . . I speak with many people who think they made a mistake by not majoring in music. At 40, it's too late (usually). At 20, it's a no-brainer.
2. I usually tell people to major in music if they can't major in anything else . . . by that, I mean that music won't let go of them . . . they have to do it or they won't be satisfied with life.
3. Music is a hard major and an even harder life. If singing nourishes you and always will, then do it. The joys are slightly different when you lead a choir vs. sing in a choir, but it is sometimes pure magic.
Good luck, and may God give you guidance soon.
plc
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